Tell mE

Ever dream???ever think that u r meant for something big??

Well,I have~~~

Itz nothing though~~~all that i could wish for myself~~~is to have my life living on my own at San Francisco~~~Why there?

haha....thanks to CHARMED....i like everything thatz running over there...

the neighbourhood....busy lifestyle but yet with the warming flavour....hmmm....

Unique in the creation of the houses,building and of course.....the GOLDEN GATE BRIDGE!!!!

I have been watching Charmed since it's birth...how disturbing to know that itz the end of the show....but i know it will never be far apart of me...quite a while since i have been hoping but

seemz like dreaming is not really doing so well for me....but it doesn't mean i would stop trying...

cuz it doesn't hurt to try,right?even so,can someone please show up in my life and make me believe again?at least i will be strong again to hold myself....

Lately been having problem in concentrating....followed by the headache...killing me~~~
"Should i keep going on?",i keep asking myself...i love the study now....juz that i keep getting off and sometimes i even doubt that this was a mistake...but itz not enough 2 make me stop....cuz after what i have been through....haha....no...i am not quitting...i mean,come on...u fight so hard and u going 2 quit when it juz a little more to hold on??dun be a fool...

Dun bE Another me~~~Be yourself~~~

Itz funny seeing u guyz can stil be so childish even after al this time~~~

I m happy....felt really good 2 have a simple life now~~~~

For those war times of my past,bye bye.....

I m going to live my life now......dun have time for you anymore.....

Life is too short for me to be anything than myself.....

Yet, hope u can find a true meaning of your life....

haiz.....it has been such a long time for me to get loose though....juz let it all out...

yes,i miss my past...but not enough to make me wanna go back....

So i say"give it a try,what have i got to loose now?"

A Story TalE~~~

"There was a boy-a very strange,enchanted boy~~~he is living in a big bad world...where ppl would lie n kill....he did everything he could 2 make ppl laugh....try so hard 2 be someone in this world~~~at the beginning,ppl like him very much~~~~thinking tat he is popular now~~~but the thing is tat he is juz a clown 2 tis world....ppl paying attention juz 2 laugh at him....so,he decided 2 leave this world...nobody knows n they lived happily ever after....THE END....."

P.S:If u plan 2 ignored me in the end,then dun talk 2 me from the beginning....

Itz hOliD@y~~

woo~~~~~~~~~~~~

Finally,i m takin my breath~~away from work n study 4 a while~~~but seemz like stopping is juz making me more sick~~~so,i m gonna go out there n do watever i wish~~~juz a little problem:whoz going wif me??

well,it has been an issue of me anti-social but i m trying.....so,let juz fill up my break blank....

though i had some planz,still thought something might comes up surprisingly~~~who knows??

Thanks 2 my classmates...that i can spend some of my time wif human rather than myself....

Itz ok~~Mom~~I m Here Now.....

So far we had been through~~~~itz not possible for u 2 give up now~~~
Dun be afraid cuz i will be there~~~i know itz very hard but we will face it 2gether....cuz i would give my whole life juz like u did for me~~seeing u now make me even stronger~~~from now on,no matter how hard,how tough it is.....i will take it~~~so plz hold on~~~For me....
I know i m right where i belong....it doesn't matter if i made a mistake cuz itz not juz abt me anymore...

Choices

I have been living my whole life with making choices~~~Itz part of the life tatz fun ,but not easy.....choosing 2 be me of right now is my choice as well....some people make choices in the wrong way and some make the wrong choices...ME~~~i have no idea what kind of choices had i made in my past but here am i now~~~still have make choice 2 live my life~~~To be honestly,it suckz 2 noe tat i made the wrong choice but i am powerless 2 reverse the wrong....so itz juz another stone tatz dragging me down,and i won let myself 2 suffer from self-blaming anymore~~~I M BETTER THAN PATHETIC~~~

Now i had another choices tat needed 2 be choosed...Actually,i had the answer already..i m going to quit my job and totally focus on my study...For the past 2 years,i had been working like maniac and never stop for anything...and look at me,i m still in the first few steps...itz not tat i hate the job bcuz itz reaaly fun and i learnt a lot...but still i feel itz time 4 me take a break from all of this and have a clear view for my future...FOR THOSE OUT THERE WHOM WORK WITH ME BEFORE...THANK YOU~~~~~THANKZ FOR CREATING THE MEMORY WITH ME~~now,i m heading my way into the unknown future...Hope to see you there~~~~

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HOld My HAnd~~~Itz THE End Of The World

THerez a lot of ppl been arguing abt the end of this world~~~when or how it will comes?
but can't u see it???the screaming....the crying....the violence....it leaves the GOD no choice...

I had a dream~~~it was simple but terrified,i was standing on the earth which appear 2 be a wasteland...

no life,no human,nothing....

i look up~~~~the sun was so close 2 me,feelz like i could touch it~~~~

But it was dead-turned purple n barely even glow...

from my standing point of view,i could even c the earth is splitting into two~~~~

tatz it~~~tat was the dream~~~i woke up,hesitated n scared for a while,but then the only thing tat i feel was numbness~~~it seemz like i understood tat it juz a matter of time if human remainz in their own way~~~So,i said"GOD,plz let me noe ur prensence if u r real...at least i stil have a heaven 2 dream of instead of here......but until then,my friendz,letz hold our hand when it comes 2 tat~~~~~~

Sorry~~~

2day has been a hard day 4 me~~~

I had Alwayz so sure of myself~~~~but it seemz like i got lost 2day~~

I lost my will,

my reason 2 move on,

my point of living,

and myself....

I hate 2 be an emotional person but it seemz 2 be a part of me~~~

so i have 2 live with it~~~but still, this is not fair 4 those around me 2 suffer from me~~~

so here i would past you all a:

SORRY!!!

therez 2 much of thingz since i had 2 move on with my journey,

it wasn't easy~~~but i keep myself 2gether and wouldn't break down a little at all~~~

but therez juz so many times i wanna juz let go watz inside of me~~

cry it out loud~~

but still the cry would finish n i still had face watz in front of me~~~

For so long i've tried 2 make myself look invincible,but it makes me more vulnerable~~~

Anyway,i will keep on searching myself~~

ThE OppOSitEz

For everything in this world,therez an opposite 2 it~~~

tatz wat we cal differences~~but it has another function>>>>Balancing....

When therez a ying,therez a yang..

when therez light,therez darkness..

when therez joy,therez had 2 be sadness...

n the most of it all describe the most will be:

LIFE AND DEATH~~~

most ppl think tat life is a beginning n death is the end~~~

when it comes 2 tat,here comes theory statez tat death is juz another beginning of a life~~

i wondered-if this is the fact,wouldn't life and death be the same???

there are ppl who would live their life like the dead ;whereas there are also ppl who would relive their life after the dead(afterlife)~~~~

so,what would u choose 2 for ur life???

Everyone juz has one life of their own,SO LIVE IT!!!!!

2day Iz 2DaY~~~

well~~~2day has been a boring day like usual~~~

mmmm....letz talk abt my lesson 2day>>2day pp lesson has brought up a very sensitive issue (2 me)

It soundz like tis-"Science stream student answer question directly n completely wif details but art stream student like 2 giv answer using their own thought"

This statement had disturb my mind n i've been argueing inside my mind~~~

Herez the thought-if art stream student study the same way as the science stream student,wouldn't that juz b a boring n pointless study if we juz study the keyword inside the text???4 me,art stream is al abt new ideas n having a wide area of thoughtz~~~~Text Is Juz A References,OK?!We r not studying 4 examination but we r studying 4 exploring~~~I would say tatz one of the factorz causing failure of MALAYSIA z education~~~What would u do if u keep doing a thing that u dun understand?well,due 2 my emotional characteristic,therez onli 1 option if i keep myself in science stream>>>>>>>ORANG GILA!!!

NEXT>>

I have loved Bahasa Melayu since i started go to skul~~~Itz my favourite subject but i wouldn't say i m gud bcuz i noe there are better outside than me~~~

BUT!!!!

Since i have been 2 this skul n being taught by this jerk named Encik Azman(AIDS MAN)

i HATE Bahasa Melayu!!!!!He is a very gud teacher in guiding student 2 a wrong way~~~WOW!!!!SO~~~Here i present a spell juz 4 u(made in skul juz now)

Seeing ur faces kills me now,

get me outta here i wonder how,

No more kindness i will tell,

Enjoy ur journey to the HELL.....

pps:i din kill any1 during the process of this spell chanting~~~

The sTarters

starting 2 write blog after my best friend ask me 2~~~well~~~
letz talk abt my friend~~~he is my best friend and was my best friend~~~huh??watz tat supposed 2 mean?

It start like this>>>i was wif a group of best friend tat i tot would laz 4ever~~~well get to the point~~~i was wrong~~~it turnz disaster n i m d who mess up~~~the incident(i was working wif al of them at Baskin Robbin,closing time i heard they r critisizing me horribly~~~i walk away from them n i lost my friends juz like tat~~~)it happenz laz year yet i felt like it was yesterday~~~since small i've gone through a lot of ppl who abandoned me which causes me 2 b a pathetic person~~but now why should i complain~~~i m living simply being myself~~~

u may say i m juz living in my own world~~~but still itz my world~~~

I apologize if i make u al feel bad~~~though it hurtz me much~~~

Try 2 move on but dun 4get~~~tatz letting go~~~at the end,you b strong~~~