时候

到了~~~

最近看见了很多朋友找到了成长，是好事吗？

有是的答案，恭喜你。。。

在过了这么一段时间，我仿佛成了一个老人，

生活太多的戏剧，情绪太大的膨湃，对我来说，

太多了。。。

然而，想回来，不是这些情绪和戏剧，我不会在这里~

成长对我而言，很残忍，我无时无刻面对恐惧。

发现自己和以前越来越大距离，才知道自己越来越不像自己。

当为未来着想，却只能无言。

志腾，你要提醒我，我在哪里。

这世界到底在搞什么？

现在的爱情真的很化学...说来就来，说走就走...

执着，坚持，谈何容易啊...

为什么人与人的关系那么脆弱？

看着现在的少年，一个拖一个，

很好玩似的...可是原来很虚无...

为何人只要牵涉到利益，立刻把所谓的原则放下？

海~~~~太无奈了....

也许这就是所谓的自私吧...

女生啊女生...为何要把自己降价呢？？

明明可以得到更好，明明有原则，却怕输，

怕没人要，结果轻易的被男生把“利用”两个字

放在你们的感情上...

不要把爱情永远放在人生的第一位，

看到，学到的东西会更多...

是时候学会放开手了...

I M healing~~~

such a long way since that time~~~

Using my path to let myself know that i can finally

live my life on my own~~~itz a very hard way but i try

to take it easy.Not everyone can turn completely at a time...

but everyone does try to change..but what if itz who we are?

what if all u have try to change and struggles take almost all the time of your life but just to see it completely destroyed in a glimpse?what if it's not meant to be?

I tell myself every single day....those day i cried and suffered

are gone now...it's just a matter of how you are going to embrace your life...so i be happy...or at least i be grateful of what i have now...

I know it's hard but no one promises it would be easy...

so make yourself a deal...get a purpose for your life and live with it...everything will be easier when you believe it..

simple as that...

THere He Goes

BYE BYE~~

原来我比想象中更不舍得你～～～

志腾....

对不起，无法不哭...我知道你一定在笑我们...

其实，我不想送你走...太辛苦了...

可是，我更不想你一个人走....

过去的一切，已经变成过去...

然而，我还在回忆徘徊当中...

haiz,算啦...还记得你这句....

很多时候，当我执着的不能再执着...

我放了或许会更自由...

可是我不会忘记....就像我不会放弃....

所以，你们要好好照顾自己...

因为失去真的很难受....

现在脑里浮现的都是和你的一幕幕...

你放心，我们都有在...

我相信认识你的都会为了你而坚强....

mmm...你不再辛苦了...

回忆+梦里再见...

Watz New?

It has been a mess~~~It will alwayz be a mess~~tatz my life....

Seemz to be an epidermic....

but wat can i say??

life has been busy and boring.....

People come,people goes....

Is it really important to hold on to something that

may already gone a long times ago??

Time is cruel.....they never rest....and neither could we...

Funny how time could juz wipes away everything,

make changes and even make us lost within...

"Dun lose urself....u noe who u are..."

I m grateful actually...knowing tat i m not nothing anymore..

Fairy tales may not happens to me,but i will give it a try to

create my story...juz wanna let u noe u r not alone...

u oso have ur own story to write....may be with a happy ending..

hope to see u there...

~~~~~~

HAIZZZZ

Can I have a my busy life back?

God~~~~~I feel so lame...

I m nt asking 4 my life 2 be total full of task...

juz a little more active...

feel like waiting 4 nothing everyday....

Juz going 2 finish my exam...mmmm....

nt really confident but it will do...

i wanna have fun....

fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

swt....

I have been calm lately....2 calm...

wherez my emotion?

i nid u...somehow i kinda lack passion tis few dayz...

ooooo.....

Conclusion>>>>>

I m bORing~~~

Corner

HUhhhhhhUHUH~~~~

Dunno...Dunno la

stupid me....oooo.....

OK~~letz start-yesterday iate ice cream at maxim's cake,named Gelato..

Itz very nice and affordable....plus it comes from Italy,Nice har?!!

go n try la....

Today was the choir competition held at Dewan Sri Pinang,

it was a great and hot experience(literally)....

Although we didn't win,i believe there is a lot of potential inside the kids...

Hmmm,Hope someday they can shine...

Here i am again,standing in the same place like i used to...

really dunno what to choose...

TO bE ShinE??OR To be THE NoRmaL???

今天的我很灰～～～～

有时候，我真的很想假装看不到...

我不想听到...

星座讲得很准，我真的看什么都不顺眼....

我以为自己可以接受，

但是我只是在假装....

有时候，真的觉得讲话没有意思，

就干脆不讲了.....

P.S:在发牢骚，处女座另一个缺点...

Yay~~~~

I quit my job!!!!!

Itz over....no more busy,tiring and stressed lifestyle...

To be honestly,it felt like i m being free...thatz when

i realised working has been a burden for me...

so herez my laz photo on my laz day...

mmm...

i should learn how to have fun...really..

i seem to forget how to do that anymore...

since that incident.....itz not the same....anymore...

owhhh.i m going shopping and hang out wif my friends

2mlo...hehe...can't wait....till then...

倒霉

好惨～～～

两天没去学校了～～～而且今天有MUET考试～～～

我竟然没去...第一天，我发烧，病得五颜六色..不能去

CHOIR练习，不好意思...第二天，要去了，motor竟然和天一起捉弄我，一个不能走，一个下大雨...我能怎样呢？？

突然觉得害怕，我一停会不会就不能再向前了..

我只是想尽力读完Form 6，可以吗？好灰哦...

突然很想念上课~~~~

REceNtLy

MMMMM...

there is a voice going through my head since i know how to judge...

i used to thought that itz some kind of illusion or even some soul's voice reaching out

for me but itz not...the voice is me....it has been with me for my whole life..

Growing up with me.....Been what i have been through....Recently,i found out that this voice is actually helping through my life....like told me to control my emotion....so that i wouldn't regret...

It feels great....I dun nid anyone to guide my life anymore(well,not totally la)...

but i guess thatz wat they call grown up...u may see me as childish as i could be...

but if u know me well,i m not juz that....

So,i give this voice a name......INSTINCT.....

HAHA....finally next week would be my last week working at SWENSEN......Itz not that

i hate it there bcuz itz wonderful...the ppl...the place...

but i guess i m not that powerful to handle everything anymore....

Stress and study are getting on my nerves...so i m going to concentrate really

good to get them straight....HOWEVER...thankz SWENSENz staff and my manager...

u GUYZ r the best...you guyz carry on with that...

FOR MY ClASS....just because u score better marks in test or exam doesn't mean that

others who can't sucks,k??They just need help and they are as valuable as u thought u were...

So,don't make yourself a bitch.....think twice before u say or do something....

YER~~~~damn

Suckzzz......

I hate it~~~i hate it when i see the ugly side....but i can't help it...

This is ridicoulos....Everyone try so hard to make themselves look good

but they got ugly instead.....Such a pity....

Why pretend?Does it feel better rather than being urself?

Once,there was a friend told me that be yourself is the key to be yourself...

but now all i can see that this world is juz like a big movie...everyone with such a

magnificient acting skill....I wonder if feelings could be pretended,would us find true love

anymore????or the world has never learn how to love???

And YOU!!!!!M.B.S.!!!!!

Sorry for you that such a dump would created on your site...

Thanks to your precious Principal and Stubborn teacher.....

The only thing we can proud of you is juz a whole bunch of trees

thatz more than other schools.......What the@#$%#$#??!?!?!&#^$@!!

Sorry for the behaviour....but itz what they gain for what they give...

GOD BLESS YOU!!!!M.B.S....

Carry on.....what the hell do you want from me?

I try to get over my past now but are you trying to bring it back?

NO WAY!!!!!i used to be strong to let you go,and i m strong enough to not let you come back...

SO,forget it.......

Phewwww.....finally....let it all out.....ooo......

I SEE YA~~~but do u see me??

Thought u have been away~~~~

Guess i was wrong...lucky i was wrong...

but i dun really feel that lucky even i saw you...

we still seemz far away like we used to...

This whole gaming thing is starting 2 make me feel weak....and itz frustrating..

Dun u see me??!!!!everytime i m there with you...

all i want is juz to get close with you....

but yet we both somehow are juz staying away from each other within a distance...

I have alwayz picture how we are going to be if we could get close enough...

but,do you?...........i mean,even a little?

It doesn't matter if u r afraid to tell me...at least give a little sign that u see me in

your eyes...and heart.....thatz all i need and i will make my feelings based juz on you...

and i don't know if you hear this but i hope you do...really hope you do....

Where r u??

HEY~~~~~

U have been missing 4 almoz 2 weekz ald~~~where r u?

look,it doesn't matter if u dun wan 2 talk 2 me....juz let me noe tat u r around...

tatz all i need 2 noe...u r such a mystery,u noe?

though charming yet irritates me sometimes....God....help me on this one..plzz...

Haiz,life challenges...although it never promise 2 be easy..

who m i fooling?i mean..if itz real,i would have had it a long time ago...

Tell mE

Ever dream???ever think that u r meant for something big??

Well,I have~~~

Itz nothing though~~~all that i could wish for myself~~~is to have my life living on my own at San Francisco~~~Why there?

haha....thanks to CHARMED....i like everything thatz running over there...

the neighbourhood....busy lifestyle but yet with the warming flavour....hmmm....

Unique in the creation of the houses,building and of course.....the GOLDEN GATE BRIDGE!!!!

I have been watching Charmed since it's birth...how disturbing to know that itz the end of the show....but i know it will never be far apart of me...quite a while since i have been hoping but

seemz like dreaming is not really doing so well for me....but it doesn't mean i would stop trying...

cuz it doesn't hurt to try,right?even so,can someone please show up in my life and make me believe again?at least i will be strong again to hold myself....

Lately been having problem in concentrating....followed by the headache...killing me~~~
"Should i keep going on?",i keep asking myself...i love the study now....juz that i keep getting off and sometimes i even doubt that this was a mistake...but itz not enough 2 make me stop....cuz after what i have been through....haha....no...i am not quitting...i mean,come on...u fight so hard and u going 2 quit when it juz a little more to hold on??dun be a fool...

Dun bE Another me~~~Be yourself~~~

Itz funny seeing u guyz can stil be so childish even after al this time~~~

I m happy....felt really good 2 have a simple life now~~~~

For those war times of my past,bye bye.....

I m going to live my life now......dun have time for you anymore.....

Life is too short for me to be anything than myself.....

Yet, hope u can find a true meaning of your life....

haiz.....it has been such a long time for me to get loose though....juz let it all out...

yes,i miss my past...but not enough to make me wanna go back....

So i say"give it a try,what have i got to loose now?"

A Story TalE~~~

"There was a boy-a very strange,enchanted boy~~~he is living in a big bad world...where ppl would lie n kill....he did everything he could 2 make ppl laugh....try so hard 2 be someone in this world~~~at the beginning,ppl like him very much~~~~thinking tat he is popular now~~~but the thing is tat he is juz a clown 2 tis world....ppl paying attention juz 2 laugh at him....so,he decided 2 leave this world...nobody knows n they lived happily ever after....THE END....."

P.S:If u plan 2 ignored me in the end,then dun talk 2 me from the beginning....

Itz hOliD@y~~

woo~~~~~~~~~~~~

Finally,i m takin my breath~~away from work n study 4 a while~~~but seemz like stopping is juz making me more sick~~~so,i m gonna go out there n do watever i wish~~~juz a little problem:whoz going wif me??

well,it has been an issue of me anti-social but i m trying.....so,let juz fill up my break blank....

though i had some planz,still thought something might comes up surprisingly~~~who knows??

Thanks 2 my classmates...that i can spend some of my time wif human rather than myself....

Itz ok~~Mom~~I m Here Now.....

So far we had been through~~~~itz not possible for u 2 give up now~~~
Dun be afraid cuz i will be there~~~i know itz very hard but we will face it 2gether....cuz i would give my whole life juz like u did for me~~seeing u now make me even stronger~~~from now on,no matter how hard,how tough it is.....i will take it~~~so plz hold on~~~For me....
I know i m right where i belong....it doesn't matter if i made a mistake cuz itz not juz abt me anymore...

Choices

I have been living my whole life with making choices~~~Itz part of the life tatz fun ,but not easy.....choosing 2 be me of right now is my choice as well....some people make choices in the wrong way and some make the wrong choices...ME~~~i have no idea what kind of choices had i made in my past but here am i now~~~still have make choice 2 live my life~~~To be honestly,it suckz 2 noe tat i made the wrong choice but i am powerless 2 reverse the wrong....so itz juz another stone tatz dragging me down,and i won let myself 2 suffer from self-blaming anymore~~~I M BETTER THAN PATHETIC~~~

Now i had another choices tat needed 2 be choosed...Actually,i had the answer already..i m going to quit my job and totally focus on my study...For the past 2 years,i had been working like maniac and never stop for anything...and look at me,i m still in the first few steps...itz not tat i hate the job bcuz itz reaaly fun and i learnt a lot...but still i feel itz time 4 me take a break from all of this and have a clear view for my future...FOR THOSE OUT THERE WHOM WORK WITH ME BEFORE...THANK YOU~~~~~THANKZ FOR CREATING THE MEMORY WITH ME~~now,i m heading my way into the unknown future...Hope to see you there~~~~

http://music.sogua.com/song/658/23161658.htm

HOld My HAnd~~~Itz THE End Of The World

THerez a lot of ppl been arguing abt the end of this world~~~when or how it will comes?
but can't u see it???the screaming....the crying....the violence....it leaves the GOD no choice...

I had a dream~~~it was simple but terrified,i was standing on the earth which appear 2 be a wasteland...

no life,no human,nothing....

i look up~~~~the sun was so close 2 me,feelz like i could touch it~~~~

But it was dead-turned purple n barely even glow...

from my standing point of view,i could even c the earth is splitting into two~~~~

tatz it~~~tat was the dream~~~i woke up,hesitated n scared for a while,but then the only thing tat i feel was numbness~~~it seemz like i understood tat it juz a matter of time if human remainz in their own way~~~So,i said"GOD,plz let me noe ur prensence if u r real...at least i stil have a heaven 2 dream of instead of here......but until then,my friendz,letz hold our hand when it comes 2 tat~~~~~~

Sorry~~~

2day has been a hard day 4 me~~~

I had Alwayz so sure of myself~~~~but it seemz like i got lost 2day~~

I lost my will,

my reason 2 move on,

my point of living,

and myself....

I hate 2 be an emotional person but it seemz 2 be a part of me~~~

so i have 2 live with it~~~but still, this is not fair 4 those around me 2 suffer from me~~~

so here i would past you all a:

SORRY!!!

therez 2 much of thingz since i had 2 move on with my journey,

it wasn't easy~~~but i keep myself 2gether and wouldn't break down a little at all~~~

but therez juz so many times i wanna juz let go watz inside of me~~

cry it out loud~~

but still the cry would finish n i still had face watz in front of me~~~

For so long i've tried 2 make myself look invincible,but it makes me more vulnerable~~~

Anyway,i will keep on searching myself~~

ThE OppOSitEz

For everything in this world,therez an opposite 2 it~~~

tatz wat we cal differences~~but it has another function>>>>Balancing....

When therez a ying,therez a yang..

when therez light,therez darkness..

when therez joy,therez had 2 be sadness...

n the most of it all describe the most will be:

LIFE AND DEATH~~~

most ppl think tat life is a beginning n death is the end~~~

when it comes 2 tat,here comes theory statez tat death is juz another beginning of a life~~

i wondered-if this is the fact,wouldn't life and death be the same???

there are ppl who would live their life like the dead ;whereas there are also ppl who would relive their life after the dead(afterlife)~~~~

so,what would u choose 2 for ur life???

Everyone juz has one life of their own,SO LIVE IT!!!!!

2day Iz 2DaY~~~

well~~~2day has been a boring day like usual~~~

mmmm....letz talk abt my lesson 2day>>2day pp lesson has brought up a very sensitive issue (2 me)

It soundz like tis-"Science stream student answer question directly n completely wif details but art stream student like 2 giv answer using their own thought"

This statement had disturb my mind n i've been argueing inside my mind~~~

Herez the thought-if art stream student study the same way as the science stream student,wouldn't that juz b a boring n pointless study if we juz study the keyword inside the text???4 me,art stream is al abt new ideas n having a wide area of thoughtz~~~~Text Is Juz A References,OK?!We r not studying 4 examination but we r studying 4 exploring~~~I would say tatz one of the factorz causing failure of MALAYSIA z education~~~What would u do if u keep doing a thing that u dun understand?well,due 2 my emotional characteristic,therez onli 1 option if i keep myself in science stream>>>>>>>ORANG GILA!!!

NEXT>>

I have loved Bahasa Melayu since i started go to skul~~~Itz my favourite subject but i wouldn't say i m gud bcuz i noe there are better outside than me~~~

BUT!!!!

Since i have been 2 this skul n being taught by this jerk named Encik Azman(AIDS MAN)

i HATE Bahasa Melayu!!!!!He is a very gud teacher in guiding student 2 a wrong way~~~WOW!!!!SO~~~Here i present a spell juz 4 u(made in skul juz now)

Seeing ur faces kills me now,

get me outta here i wonder how,

No more kindness i will tell,

Enjoy ur journey to the HELL.....

pps:i din kill any1 during the process of this spell chanting~~~

The sTarters

starting 2 write blog after my best friend ask me 2~~~well~~~
letz talk abt my friend~~~he is my best friend and was my best friend~~~huh??watz tat supposed 2 mean?

It start like this>>>i was wif a group of best friend tat i tot would laz 4ever~~~well get to the point~~~i was wrong~~~it turnz disaster n i m d who mess up~~~the incident(i was working wif al of them at Baskin Robbin,closing time i heard they r critisizing me horribly~~~i walk away from them n i lost my friends juz like tat~~~)it happenz laz year yet i felt like it was yesterday~~~since small i've gone through a lot of ppl who abandoned me which causes me 2 b a pathetic person~~but now why should i complain~~~i m living simply being myself~~~

u may say i m juz living in my own world~~~but still itz my world~~~

I apologize if i make u al feel bad~~~though it hurtz me much~~~

Try 2 move on but dun 4get~~~tatz letting go~~~at the end,you b strong~~~